Stay positive!!

For no reason,I started to think stuff.All nonsense.Nothing corrupted la XD

Now,am bored here.Started rotting at home so,I decided to blog!

I can't sleep these days nor study =_+'' I really need to concentrate on my academics.Sigh....yesterday was not a very good day for me as I witnessed something awful.I wish I could blurt out everything here but I couldn't as...I don't know...just can't think of where to start.Once I start something,I can't stop.Me...am foolish.That's all I can say.

Life isn't easy after all.OK...fine maybe,I should express my thoughts here.Not everything.Bit by bit.I.I.I.I...sigh nothing...Fuchook la....I hope my life will go smoothly and if there's any obstacles or whatever disturbance,just HOPE I can overcome these problems.How I wish there is such high technology such as a time machine for me to return to the past and correct all my mistakes.Mainly it's because...I don't want to have this remorseful feeling that have always been in my heart.It's been a burden.Come to think of it,it's so-painful...

Everytime,when I think about the incident,I'll suffocate and all of the sudden,die out of misery.Tears will be rolling down on my cheeks as i shut my eyes.WTH?..I am insane.BUTBUTBUT,now I am still happy with my life as...there are no backstabbing or bad-mouthing or whatever crap la and I get to know some other people better.Brightens my life even more.

Sigh...sigh....sigh...=( > =D....Think positive,stay all positive.I think I should eat ice-cream to cheer me up or maybe chat with my utmost best friend.The only one...whom I trust with my entire life =D I need to go to bed now so,tata.<3>

Wish List

1. My desires come true
2. Live in a harmonious life without fretting (LMAO)
3. Release stress in various kind of ways (Dancing will help!It's like the secret language of my soul =P)
4. Be active in sports-again
5. Joke and fool around with cousins and friends
6. Blog =)
7. Achieve my goals =)

That's it (I think-ed)Wish me luck.Oh by the way,read my blog if you want but I am warning you that my blog is full with lameassery so....(who cares??) *winks*

A little advice for u,Gabriel

Try forgetting about her,dude

I know it's hard to forget about her...The thing is...she already has a boyfriend who she can actually be happy with.I bet both of them are happy now,together as a couple =) You should at least be happy for them too.I know you are happy for her but that is not what you want...and if you can't stop thinking about her,it also means you are also feeling dissatisfied deep inside your heart.

No offence,Gabriel.You can find a better girl who can love you the same way as you love her.I will help you to forget about her if you want.I can't stand watching you going crazy over her.People might think that you are too obsessed with her.I think you should move on with your life.

Moreover,if you continue being all miserable and one day when she finds out about this.She will feel remorseful and be upset.IF you want her to be happy with her life,stop behaving like this.She will be happy enough if you could forget about her and start a new life =) Same goes for all of your friends who cared for you.

You felt like you've lost everything after knowing the fact that she's taken???If you do feel like that,I can prove it to you that you're so wrong.You still have 'us'.We are like a part of your family.Don't worry too much,brother.You can let go of her...but it'll takes time.So...if you need my help,you can just call me =) I'll be there to support you!

ADIOS....am no longer single =)

It's been a long since I've not written anything here.LMAO.Life changed a lot eversince I shifted to 2 Baiduri...Used to be in 2 Berlian but decided to changed class for some personal reason which I can only tell my Best Friends =)I missed blogging so much...just didnt have the time to write...Ok...now am not in my miserable single life anymore (Being single wasn't that bad actually,more freedom but more boredom XD)

Things are not the same this time.I've learned from my mistakes...and...been through painful experiences last year...which gave me a lot of pressure and unforgettable memories.I hated myself after realising what i've done.So this year,2010,I am going to make a change.A new better image of myself.Just want to apologise after what I've done to them..If they read this =)

COUPLE,DOUBLE,TROUBLE

Ahemm...It's my first time having a special boyfriend =) So,most of the time whenever I meet him in person,I am shy.F.Y.I readers...he's shy too....(So cute!!) The thing is....he is too---shy...even worse than me...I was like ''What the Heck....you being shy?Impossible..''Lol...it makes me want to bully him =) Anyway...that does not matters now...

Firstly,before we became couples,we are always texting each other...(That's a fresh start) and talk about stuffs (It's P@C...so sorry people) As we got closer to know better,it developed into a feeling...Somehow,I can't described how I felt,the only word i can say is...''EXCITED'' and there's more...just dont have the right words...LOL...To those who have experiences about being in a relationship,I am kindly asking for your advice =) As you can see...am clueless...or maybe you can say am dumb la...I dont mind =)

After a while,when I agreed to be his girlfriend......we stopped texting each other...One of the many reasons are...busy studying for the mid-term examination...secondly...he is busy (But...however busy he is,he should have at least send a message to inform me that he will be busy for a week just to study for his exams)Honestly,I missed him dearly...just that if we don't keep in touch often...I am afraid I might lose my interest in him....

On second thought,texting isn't a big deal afterall.....Besides,not messaging does not mean that we dont like each other...ryte?(Trying to keep myself being all-positive thinking) Moreover,I must be patient when it comes to relationship.Nothing goes perfectly as planned....or expected...0_0....do they...?

I am frustrated right now....But I am still surviving because of my family and friends.Especially friends =) Looking forward to hang out with you people =D Tata for now *waves*
PS...I am not proud of myself for being an arrogant bimbo last time...so sorry people...n those previous blogs i've wrote proved that I am a bad person...used to be a horrible person..just hope you guys can forgive me =) I hope I wont be offending anymore or rude =)

Unknown,mysterious,dumb but handsome??

Woah....every inch of his perfection,I had to study on him!I was heard from my old buddy that he was an athlete and a total drop-dead-gorgeous!Well,to me,it's like....umm....''God damn freaking LORD,IS HE?''(Flabbergasted)....=_='' That was my first impression when I first heard about him.



The next day,the excitement had gone (F.Y.I,I know nothing about him and he stays mysterious to me,temporarily)BUT.....He was friends with seafoody-girls which I loathed most,same goes to my friends and my beloved brother.I am so picky when it comes to boyfriends' topic.....(Forgive me for being too arrogant)



The ''thingy'' (friends with seafoods) seriously made me lost my interestingness in him....which is....like.....a total let down.He is unknown,mysterious and not really doing academically in his studies (Another let down)....but he is handsome.I don't mind the look,I want the heart,is it pure?But,how am suppose to communicate with him....he doesn't really speaks English...which practically I must understand in order to move on!He is chinese-educated....me,the english-educated-since-young.....eventhough am a Buddhist.



I'd decided,HE IS A NO!He is fuchooking rude and doesn't understands me...even on the 1st day I met him,he could be rejected but,I gave him another shot as my ex-mate is saying words,supporting him...It went well....but not 'that' well as he kept saying ''boring..''(You're the one who is interested in me in the 1st place and now the word;boring?!?!No respect and dignity,a total LOSER!)


Results:Met him,he is UGLY.....nvr ever gonna trust my ex-mate anymore,his taste sux..

B.R and KH

Yesterday exactly at 12:40 p.m. we left school because we're heading to B.R as Nata will treat me an ice-cream!HAHA!I love it so much....it is delicious,obvsly.LOL But it cost alot....pity Nata,she will be broke in no time if she continues being generous to me ^.^



XOXO:Thanks Nata a.k.a my sister for years I'd known!



I ate 'Pralines N Creme' and 'Mango sorbet'!YUMMY!Seriously delicious and can't believe that it makes me full after eating those mouth-watering ice-creams...hehehe..After that,we headed back to school as-soon in no time,school bell is going to ring.



~KH~



Was immense excited and I go all...crazy-weezy!It's because I thought we're (The girls in my class) going to sew something as we must go to the sewing room,for the first time.But..when we reached there....we did nothing but gossiping and listening to teacher's words.=.=''The sewing machines had spoilt so,too bad too sad.....no fun for us..



1 hour later,the malays went - to a place which I'd forgotten what do 'it' called for their prayers.Me and my buddies started dancing in uniforms.As for Deborah and Eu-yean did splits in their skirts but don't worry,they got shorts.I did too but I am smart enough to cover it up,LOL (Just kidding)

Something had happened to me which I don't think it is necessary to laugh at except for those who are not open-minded like Aida.She laughed at me for some reason but none of my classmates join her laughing.She kept saying she can do those stunts we did and the girls stared at her-(Ya,right...we'll se whether you can do stunts or maybe break your bones)She said it with a jolt of shock,''OH MY GOD!'' twicely at me and-the girls including her friends supported me.They scolded her back!(LOL....haha...am touched)

P.S:Thanks my friends for supporting me over the jerk,you know who....

Friendship...

Yesterday,after the bell rung (time for us to head home),everyone rushed out of the school and started gossiping,just like me and my friends...but we don't rush as to keep looking cool...XD...
I was talking with Deborah,Amelia and Rean....we were all crazy doing the jumps and the dance moves.All of the sudden,I heard Angel shouted at Tushenraj and I was concerned...(Duh!A close friend should be worried if their friends get into trouble)...

She was PISSED!As i walked towards her,Rean and Diana followed me.I asked her ''What happened?ARE YOU OKAY???'' and she replied me ''Go awayla!' with the ''BUZZ-OFF'' hand-gesture'.I didn't hear her words clearly as she spoke too fast.She walked away with an angry face...I asked Rean and Diana about what she said (Just to prove that I am not dreaming)....Diana said she told me to buzz off...and then came..a nod from Rean.I was mad,seriously mad!I accidentally blurted it out-''I loathe her!''.Diana agreed with my statement too.I stared at her for seconds and turned away with my eyebrow raised as I can't believe she actually loathed demonic Angel up till now.Then,I said-''I hate her but I still love her as my friend....just sometimes...she's weird..''.Rean and Diana were-speechless,a total silence because if they say a word to me,I might get frustrated over them instead Angel.

After few minutes,Angel's dad arrived:Car 007 so,we both went in the car.
* * * * *
-Silenced-
No voices-but cars honing at traffics can be heard.I read the ''Star-crossed'' story book about Romeo and Juliet that I'd borrowed it from Serene in the car as-obliviously not to try making the situation awkward again though it is already awkward.She was reading a book too,but I don't know what's the title of the book as she is facing on her right whereas I was on my left,kind of peeping at her for few times just to see the gestures of feeling remorseful...but there's NOTHING!Nothing at all,she look all unrepentantly and reading the book perusedly.

It's a curse from her...or maybe she was cursed by her new so-called group of friends and one of them has rabbit-teeth....name her 'Snaggle Tooth'.AH-HA!GOTCHA!I knew it!!I JUST-KNEW IT!Her dad turned behind a couple of times as-awkwardness in Car 007 HAD ONCE HAPPENED AGAIN!It had happened but it was spotted by her dad as we used to talk...talk and talk till when I reaches home,we stop talking and will waved to each other.But this time,when I stepped-out of the car,I greeted them both father and daughter ''bye!''.Angel replied too but with a soft unheardable voice and without looking directly at me (Are you feeling remorseful,now??).

Her dad stared at me.I might be afraid that her dad misunderstood between the conflict we both best-friends-for-years had.I knew Angel since we're kinder,studied at the same kindergarden too and we were very closed,precisely.After escaping the awkwardness in the car,I had my warm bath quickly and dressed into my favourites.It was my eldest brother birthday and I have to be fully prepared.Me and my family celebrated at Fish Manhattan,Jusco (Wait a min...did I spell the ''Manhattan'' correctly?)That's all....my latest news..

Lame,uncool and a crime...REJECTED!

.......Usual school days with homeworks.....After recess,Mdm Ngai called me so,I went there with My Eu-yean(An avid reader of vampire stories).We brought stuffs that must be returned;the Chinese fans and clothes.Also,the cheerleading championship forms with the fees-RM 11.(It was on Thursday)

Friday...

We had an aerobic exercises,not ''we'',the lamebo's.Anyway,it is practically for those people who WON'T exercise regularly.No offence.In that case,me and my friends sat somewhere which is not occupied and near the stinky drain (Can't avoid the too intensively smell as the drain is built everywhere)P.S.It's a bloody odour and don't think it's harmless...It's indeed a dreadful poison,might die instantly...DODGY...Me,Nat,Jani,EU,Rean,Deb and loads more...gossiped about someone (Sorry it's P@C) and we'd danced.Me and Jani danced our so-called ''Tango'' which is not-so-perfect but,never-mind,just dance for fun as watching lamebo's exercising is not thrilling!

Me and the darlings (Eu,deb,rean and yap) split perfectly on the floor in a formation of square..duh...and we-giggled (Lunatics..right?Maybe..).Nothing interesting has happened so I will skipped to the part;Do's and Dont's.


Do's and Dont's
Do's...Stay put at where you were last Friday,gossip,joke and do whatever is fun-but try not making yourself a clown as you might look like a fool to everyone.

Dont's...Never-EVER join the lamebo's as that exercise is only for those who WON'T do workouts in their entire life,get it?By the way,don't stare at other girls who had been staring at you,those girls who had these-hairstyles.Hairstyles...how to describe??Those weird untidy-not cool or HOT kind of hairstyles...example....'LALA'...XD...a.k.a SEAFOOD.A total disgust and a 100% social rejected!NO OFFENCE,Am telling the truth so that,you (Seafo...gals) may change your attitude and hairstyles to better ones...

Understood?Dear readers,I may not know who you are (Maybe,unless you asked me and i might check my memories,any familiarities of you ;p)......puh-lease marked my words...especially 'those girls' I had mentioned above,No offence,btw.I am still feeling unimpressed and bemused...why must they have 'these' kind of hairstyles....so uncool...and it is a HAIRSTYLE-CRIME!!Gotta admit it..I felt vaguely surprised....lol...when I look around,surrounded by-what else...??(I wouldn't be shocked unless I saw millions of devastating hairstyles that seafoody-girls had on their heads).Also,I can sensed an unpleasant atmosphere....like girls...glaring at us (me and my friends) viciously...

Don't wanna get embarrassed and feeling lost in how to decide which choice your gonna make so that you won't stuck being lonely;awkwardness,is what you will face when you are all alone...Example...''If I don't get 'these' hairstyles or whatever they have,I won't befriended and ended up being a loner...''.F.Y.I don't underestimate yourself,be confident and-don't over-react.....follow what is right to do...